A Moment You Wish You Could Relive - Day 23

I’m stumped.  Is that bad?  It’s not that there aren’t moments I want to relive, because I have some great memories that I would love to relive but at the same time, if we relive those moments over again, are they really as special the second time?  That’s my fear.  Instead I look forward to creating new memories that I’ll carry with me forever.  But for the sake of this topic, here are some amazing moments in my life, in no particular order (and of course I know there are some escaping my mind purely because I want to write about them right now):

-Trip to Paris with my parents and sister

-Every trip to Disney World

-Receiving my acceptance letter to Berklee College of Music

-Performing with my best friend Tracey at the variety show our junior year of high school (every performance we did together was awesome but this was the first one and we blew the world out of the water.  I will never forget how big our smiles were that day.  Not sure if I’ve ever smiled that big before.)

-Graduation college (not graduation itself...I passed out and hardly remember it, but the act of finishing my college education).

-Packing up my life and moving across the country, getting stuck in Utah (I never want to relive Beaver City, Utah again!)

-Every moment I was able to prove my singing abilities to someone (whether that be my vocal teacher, choir director, the rest of the choir, or other people singly).

-The night I went into NYC with Ida to see Wesley Jeremiah for the first time to gauge my interest in management.  Now they’re The Lumineers and as they say it, the rest is history.

-Every time I see The Lumineers live it reignites the fire to push them to the success they deserve and spread the music the world needs to hear.

-Being a “junior” bridesmaid in my grandma’s wedding - how many people can say that? 

-Three words: THE. COPY. CATS.  (For those of you not in my family, this was the band made up of my sister, cousin Drew, cousin Shawn, and myself.  We rocked!)

-Standing in front of the door at my grandma’s old house staring at my mom and aunt after eating my ice cream and realizing I lost (and apparently swallowed) my first tooth.

-The “jean shirt club” - an extension of the copy cats

-Being in love

Okay, so that last one I do hope to relive at some point.  And I know it’s not a moment, it’s a feeling.  But that feeling led to so many amazing moments and memories just because every minute with that person was never long enough but was full of happiness.  Nothing beats that feeling.  And all I can do is hope that I stumble upon it again one day. 

A Letter to Someone Who Has Hurt You Recently - Day 22

Is it ironic to anyone else that this topic comes up on Valentine’s Day?  The day that is supposed to be full of love.  I don’t enjoy this holiday, whether I’m single or not but this is a difficult topic for me.  Is a few years ago considered recent enough?  Or could this be just a couple months?  I’ve been hurt quite a bit.  And the crazy thing is, it’s always the people you least suspect, that end up hurting you the most.  So with that...

To the People Who Have Hurt Me Recently:

It’s fine that you don’t like me.  Quite honestly, after the last few months, I’m not too fond of you either.  Sometimes it blows my mind that just a few months ago, we were good friends and you actually wanted it to be that way.  I’m not sure whatever changed with you and while it took me some time to accept, I’ve come to the point that it doesn’t matter.  I’m at the point where I’m not going to fight for your attention or to hang out and be friends again.  Honestly, I don’t care.  There are people out there who are true friends, who want to spend time with me, who want to be my friend - those are the people that I want around me anyway.  

Here is what gets me though: Why is it that you must talk bad about me behind my back and convince others that it’s “not okay” to hang out with me or be my friend?  Why do you even care?  Can’t you let people make their own decisions on who they want to be friends with?  The fact is, people leave and tell me now it’s “okay” for us to hang out....actually, if you’re making it such a big deal for them to not be my friend that they believe you, well lucky for you, I won’t be their friend because I don’t want those kinds of people in my life either.  

Thing is, we aren’t in high school anymore.  I’m not sure if you’ve realized that yet.  In fact, we’re adults; we’re in this thing they call the “real world” and things like this don’t fly here.  I know right now you think they do, you think you’re in control, but you’re not.  I know you don’t think I see right through your “be nice now that I’m in the office” attitude change, but now you’re finding out, I do.  And it has no positive affect for you.

Also, let me point something out to you.  I have a world, a life, friends outside of “this world” and I’m over allowing you to bring me down and make me feel bad about myself.  I’m not sure your reasoning for it, especially since we used to call each other friend but just know your time of being in control is over. 

I know they always say “the good girl/guy always finishes last” but I refuse to let that be the case this time.  I highly doubt you’ll read this or if you do, I’m sure you’re laughing and joking around.  But I don’t care.  2011 is about me, improving my life, and surrounding myself with people that make me feel good about myself and are supportive, and taking the steps that I need to improve my life and my career in all aspects. 

I wish no harm upon you.  I’m not like that.  I just wish that one day, you will wake up and realize that your behavior is childish and you will grow up.  That you will see the positives in everyone, not just their negatives.  Open yourself to seeing your own personal downfalls so that you can spend each day working towards improving them, not hiding your insecurities by being rude to others.  People will respect you more if you can admit and own your mistakes, not point fingers at other people or lie.

In no way am I saying I’m perfect, because I am not.  But what I can do, is admit when I do something wrong, mess up, and that I am far from perfect.  I have taken initiative to work on fixing the things I don’t like about my life, about myself so that I can be more confident and happy.  I’m sorry that right now, you can’t do the same.

All the best,

Katie

A Photo of Something That Makes You Happy - Day 21

I’ve been super sleepy lately.  Not just always tired sleepy, but more like falling asleep at 8:00 on my couch or the moment I sit down - hence, my delay in yesterday’s post. 

And instead of just one thing that makes me happy, I would like to include several because it is all of them together that truly make me happy. 

Flowers

Coffee

Wine & Candles

Yoga / Exercise

Music

Fun notes from friends

The Meaning Behind Your Blog Name - Day 20

In case you missed my first post, here (http://talkless-saymore.blogspot.com/2011/01/talk-less-say-more.html) it is, where I touch on why I started the blog.  ‘Talk Less, Say More’ came from a Swedish Proverb I ran across that felt like my new mantra for 2011.  I don’t start resolutions, but rather look for ways of self-improvement and this seemed like the perfect solution, a way of thinking, even to just briefly change your current mindset.  I could go more into detail about how each partial phrase speaks to me in a different way and relates to me on a deep level, but then we’d be here all day and you still may not full understand how I work and what makes me tick.  It just seems like to much of an undertaking for me; maybe someday.

I found this online a few days ago: http://www.thefrisky.com/post/246-our-favorite-fictional-bands-from-tv/

I have to admit there was a big of anxiety building up in me as I was waiting for ‘Jesse and the Rippers’ to make an appearance on the list, knowing that if it didn’t show, I would deem this list super dumb and inaccurate.  Please watch the ‘Forever’ video.  I think we all would agree with them, this video is cheesetastic! :)

Another Picture of Yourself - Day 19

There really isn’t anything fun about today’s topic seeing as I don’t enjoy pictures of myself.  But here are a few fun ones:

This picture is fairly old now.  My sister had come to visit me in Boston and I made us strawberry shortcake for dessert one day.  It was delicious and I was being crazy.

This picture is from last week.  My friend Cole and I went out for a friend’s birthday at a karaoke bar.  

And lastly, this is from a couple months ago at a co-workers birthday celebration.  This was the “I don’t want my picture taken” face. ;)

Something You Crave A Lot - Day 18

Well this is easy - SUGAR!  

Next question... :)

No seriously, if it contains sugar, chances are that I love it, want it, crave it.  Whether it’s cookies, ice cream, chocolate - hand it over!!

With today being the Verizon iPhone launch we had some food for employees and of course, there were sugar based treats...it took my craving and I’m pretty sure made it worse.  

So as I sit here writing this, I can’t help but think I could really go for some frozen yogurt...or maybe that’s just because it also fills my voids. 

A Photo of You and Your Family - Day 17

Would you believe I don’t actually have that many photos of my family on my computer? The ones that I do have are older and from when I made my sister a photo book before she joined the Peace Corps.  I wanted to make sure she had plenty of pictures (new and old) to remember all of us and share with the people that she met.  Sometimes older pictures are fun and there’s no rule saying I had to use a current picture (aside from the fact that my parents, sister and I are hardly in one place at the same time more than a day or two a year - if that!) so photo ops don’t really occur that often.  And, let’s be honest, I’m pretty terrible at remembering to take pictures...oops!  Anyway, here are a few for your eyes to enjoy! :)

This picture is old and kind of awful, but possibly the only picture I have in iPhoto of the 4 of us together.

We're crazy.  What can I say? :)

My aunt and cousins from Missouri (minus one who was probably off playing) and my Grandma’s sister.

Can you say SUPER old?! This is from my high school graduation.  It looks sunny now but a few hours later, mid (outdoor) ceremony, it started to downpour!

My aunt and cousins came up from Texas for a visit and one of my dad’s other sisters and his brother came over.  It was a photo op that doesn’t happen to often.  Beth wasn’t around so Dad Photoshopped her in...kinda. 

My sister and I at her going away party with the super awesome cake I made of Africa.

I checked Facebook this morning and this was at the top: http://barbarapartment.com/video/2011/02/09/the-lumineers-ho-hey-round-2-2/

 (It's a video - it's okay to click the link!)

All I have to say is that I love my job.  :)

I’m currently in this “purging” stage.  I’m trying to rid my apartment of things that I don’t need and don’t use.  Rid my closets of clothes that don’t fit or that I don’t wear.  Rid my life of people who create a negative atmosphere or make me feel bad about myself.  As part of this, I’m going through old magazines that I’ve been holding onto.  I always save a magazine for an article, recipe, etc that caught my eye on first glance but let’s be honest, we never go back and read it or make the recipe.  Instead, we forget why we saved that magazine in the first place.  My new thing has been to one by one take these old magazines to the gym with me.  If there’s something I want to hold onto, I fold the page over, rip it out when I get home, and recycle the magazine.  It’s been fun.  Last night I was ripping out some of the folded over pages in a copy of ‘Real Simple.’  I always forget the magazine starts with a quote, sometimes just something fun but often something to inspire you, or get your brain thinking.  Today, I want to leave you with this quote that caught my eye and I had to set aside:

“I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past” - Thomas Jefferson, in a letter to John Adams (August 1, 1816)